Friday, 18 June 2010

well hey there

i blame education solely for the lack of attention to this thang. granted i thought after exams i'd actually have spare time to do what i like, but clearly that hasn't happened.
revision and exams ate my time before. god what hindrances!

i'm rather resentful of education right now lets say, it's just the fact that okay, AS levels aren't as taxing as A2 but they're hardly a bag of roses. pretty much everyone i know is completely burnt out from last week, and i still know some people who still have exams. considering biology's already comdemmed us to coursework next week i'm pretty peed. we haven't learnt a thing! i'm not sure anyone cares.
it's about the kidney for christ sake. the most i've learnt is that lorna hacks at it pretending it's mr fraine's head. she's a pleasant child (;
managed to drop critical thinking today though. that was a relief! finally got rid of that horrible little thing. but celebrating by eating was a mistake. and i walked home with saturated feet. tah nick. if it's raning next time you're walking on your own pal. (:

so.. i still have my hair in a towel turban (': 
skating this week has managed to relieve some of the crappiness of JC. my gosh, i have been a stroppy sod lately!

i'm sorry if i've been a bit if a bitch.. i'm glad things are okay though. (:
missed you loser (':

starting my EPQ soon! eeeee, i can't wait. i can do photography for an equivalent of an AS so i actually have something to prove i might be half good at it.

not kidding, it's taken me forever to take that. i had to time it right so i could break into the field next to mine seeing as although mine is full of gorgeous heather, it doesn't quite have the same effect as buttercups for a hippy look.

urgh, i'm so ridiculously tired. possibly because of disgustingly early mornings, just why?! i mean come on.. i'm getting old here.
i need a job, driving lessons and a car please (:

i indulged a little in a relatively expensive pocket watch.

okay this post's relatively crap, i'm so so tired and i had a trail of thoughts in the bath but now i'm more concerned about that fact that my fringe is buggering about.
and my internet's being rather daft.

i've decided after eating so bloody much lately, i'm going on a proper health kick. 'least in summer there's so much amazing fruit about (': not to mention ice. iced water is actually amazing. (:

they are rather beautiful (:
one last one maybe? then seriously, just check my devientArt (: reginald tribianni

i'm sorry for being a twit.
i've missed you loserrrrrrrr (:

Tuesday, 8 June 2010

not so good..

pretty much how i feel right now. how my exams are going right now. and in fact.. well. if i'm being uber pessamistic then my llife's kinda following that trend too right now.

i don't know if it's the insane amount of stressing i'm doing over slightly menial exams. granted for AS they do matter if i'm going to get into next year but still. today i've pretty much fucked up biology and especially english. i completely forgot to do language analysis in the first part and in the second part with poetry i forgot the whole structure to an essay.
just fabulous. not good :/

maybe i'm making a big deal out of nothing? i just feel fucking exhausted yet i've hardly done anything. go figure for me? oh wonderful. my internets being a twat as usual, my dogs barking and it's going straight through my head, i'm fairly miserable, i feel like crying and it's Helen's birthday tomorrow.

great. absolutely great.

god i feel pathetic. 
the only good thing today was i got a text making me smile before english, and that i managed to tell the examiner that plath was a crap poet who should have kept her suicidal thoughts to her bloody self.

also got told something today which is a bit.. shit really. 

will someone please just come and hug me?
i really kinda need one.

Thursday, 3 June 2010

cuts and bruises

one day skating and i'm aching, bleeding, bruised yet smiling inanely. 
how the heck can being in pain make me cheerful?! ah dear. i hope my thumb isn't broken or sprained or whatever. i kinda need to have the ability to write for exams? especially english and history, boy they're gonna be fun! (':

not gonna be a long post, my internets acting like the queen on HRT and i object strongly to it buggering about.
ahh, mary poppins (': blast from the past :D

momma's managed to accuse me of being a smoker and a drunk. 
i'm actually rather offended! for one, i only drink when i'm in good company at a party or with my jackass. and for another, just because there seems to be a weird fag aroma occasionally it doesn't mean it's me! frankly it's a disgusting habit and i appreciate my lungs working as hard as they already are to keep me alive. granted i might not eat perfectly healthily and exercise on a military routine but smoking is one thing that's never going to affect my health. it's a ridiculous waste of money and it smells utterly foul!
- if i wanted to smell like an ash try mother, i'd stick one over my head and be done with it. i like my lungs pink and healthy tah.

rant over (:

scary that me and dais actually revised like we planned today, usually we plan these things but find nice distractions like johnny depp and picking apart orlando bloom's crappy acting. we rewarded hard work with skating and bruises. 
my ass is going to absolutely hate me. 

it's grown on me and i've decided i love it (:

photoshop's a bugger to work with when you're not used to it.
but i had a go and this came out of it so it can't be all bad (:

i think i've obtained tan lines and a pretty glow today :'D
hardcore revision for the next few days i think.. so many dvds and a constant supply of coffee. sorted (':

"it's hard to compromise, when i see through your eyes. it's just a common view; i guess it's lost on you."
- big love for two door cinema club.

i think i like you. (: